Goodbye 2009 and Hello 2010

Today is the last day of 2009, the last day of the year, the last day of a decade. This has been a decade of ups and downs. Downs are obvious, lost some extremely important people in my life (Mom, Grandma and Poppi to name a few). Ups are also obvious birth of beautiful nieces and nephew (shout out to Miyah, Brie, Jake, Ella and Dara), births of some of my closest friends' children (shout out to Alex, Katharine and Cooper).

I look back at the year and see how far I have come. I look forward to 2010 and see how far I have to go. And I am thankful for both!

I hope 2010 brings you all the good you deserve! Happy New Year!!!

So, how did I do?

Early this year I posted some resolutions that I had set for 2009. Not a big fan of resolutions as often we set them and break them so quickly. Also, people set shallow goals and not things that will make them a better person, happier or improve the world in general. So, here are the ones I set and my thoughts on how I did...

1. Take better care of myself (physically and emotionally). - I think I did pretty well on this. I've stayed in shape (for the most part, minus some set backs due to health and schedules). I've let go of a lot and really don't let things bother me the way they used to. I will continue this into 2010, that's for sure!

2. Be a better daughter, sister, cousin, friend and "mom" to those I care about the most. - Okay, so define "better"...lol...I've tried to be more focused on my life and those that I care about and those who care about me. I was able to spend time with my cousins and their families. I got to visit Jules in CA and see her when she headed back East. I reconnected with some friends that I had drifted from and even strengthed other friendships. As for the "mom", Lupe is everything to me. She had a tough year with her health and I haven't balked when she needed a vet visit, medication, or just attention. Lupe is told every day that I love her and she gets a "G-d bless Lupe" everytime I leave the house. Again, I will continue this one into 2010.

3. Pay off more debt. - Didn't do as well as I had wanted to on this one. There were things that came up that required attention and money (still love Miss L) and that was tough on getting debt paid off. Will continue to watch expenses so that I can look into buying a home.

4. Be more patient and less jumpy towards people. - Hot and cold on this one...need to keep working on it. But there are a couple of instances where I bit my tongue and didn't snap at someone where previously I would have.

5. Achieve professional success and goals. - Got the promotion I wanted in February. Working on a certification for contract management. Been a good year on this one!

6. Do more things I like. - Check...definitely did this and very happy I did :)

So what's in store for 2010? Time will tell, but I am looking forward to the new year and prosperity, health and peace for us all. Well, for most of us :) For others, karma does come around. But I digress...

Post holiday Monday

I made it through the Christmas holiday...enough said...

Yesterday I went to visit a friend from work, her husband and their 5 day old baby daughter. She was absolutely beautiful. Now, I am the type that doesn't think all babies are cute. In fact, I have seen some very funny babies in my life. Skylar is not one of them. It was nice to sit and talk with them for a couple of hours. And then wonderful to get back home to my place and spend some time doing things I wanted to...playing cow, stingray, ball with Lupe...you know, the important stuff.

So, its Monday now and things are VERY quiet at work. I'm supposed to make it through until Thursday? Yikes! I'm hoping to get my hair cut today, but my friend that cuts my hair has a son at home, so not sure if I'm going to be able to get it done this week. Sigh!

I hope Santa was good to you all! Taking a couple of days to reflect on the year and look forward towards the next :)

Peace on Earth...

Just wanted to say Merry Christmas to all!!!

I get wished a Merry Christmas all the time. Does it bother me? No. Its really just someone being kind and hoping you have a happy holiday, whatever holiday you may celebrate. I even have some people who know I don't celebrate Christmas wish my a Merry Christmas. Again, doesn't bother me a bit, but it does usually cause a good chuckle when the person realizes what they have said.

This year I've realized that there is something to be said for the "Christmas Spirit". People are either completely stressed out about shopping, cooking and family or they are relaxed and enjoying this time of year. Having not celebrated Christmas for the majority of my life and then celebrating it for a few years, I was a mix of the two. Now, I'm the relaxed type, although there have been moments of stress in dealing with family...I don't want to even mention the traffic! But I can only hope that the spirit of the season does touch people, even those who do not celebrate Christmas.

So, Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, whatever...just please be safe and enjoy the time to be with loved ones. May this be a holiday season to remember!

She did it!

Just wanted to give a huge shout out to Jules for getting through her entire chemo cycle! I know its wasn't an easy road, but she's done and can look forward to getting stronger and better. More treatment is coming, but right now I am so happy for her! G-d bless Jules!!!

She's 2!

Just wanted to wish Lil' K a VERY happy 2nd birthday! And to congratulate her mom, dad and brother on this important milestone in their family!

I do have her card...maybe I can drop it off this weekend?

Happy Birthday Lil' K!

Cookies, cookies and some more cookies!!!

Saturday I made 8 dozen oatmeal scotchies for a friend's cookie exchange Saturday evening. I had thought I had all my ingredients until I went add the vanilla...the one thing I forgot to check when I made my shopping list. It was about 12:30, freezing cold and I hadn't showered after the gym. So, I went out in my sweats and a baseball hat to look for vanilla. I don't live overly close to a grocery store but there is a CVS nearby...success! My place smelled like warm butterscotch all afternoon! The party was a lot of fun and I got a bunch of cookies and recipes.

Problem is, how is one person going to eat multiple dozens of cookies? Answer, I'm not! CB and her family are donated food to a local family in need and my cookies are going in with the donation. They asked for assorted cookies, so assorted cookies they will get! Phew!!!

Yesterday I went to CB's house and she, Alex and I made sugar cookies. Well, Alex and I were trying to make sugar cookies, but CB was more interested in covering me with flour. She kept throwing the stuff at me or taking her floury hands and rubbing them on my face. I mean, really!

So, if I gain 20 lbs. this season, its all the cookies fault! :)

Top 5

Lupe asked me to post her top five list from this morning...so here goes...

Top 5 ways to make Lupe-dog happy...

#5 Come home.

#4 Bring me to see someone.

#3 Belly scratches

#2 CRACK (if you don't know what crack is and you have a dog, go buy a pack of Denti-Stix, you'll find out soon enough).

#1 Give me 2+ inches of snow that I can roll, romp and bury my face in!

Its December, its the Northeast, its going to snow!!! Wish we could have snow days like the schools do...

Its December already?!

Wow, I can't believe it! Thought I would bore you all with a run down of my Thanksgiving weekend...

Wednesday - plan was to drop off Jeep for oil change and spend day with BF and her kids doing some shopping and baking homemade pumpkin pies. Plan was changed as Lupe had some accidents in the house (pee and vomit) so she had to go to the vet. I let them do the sterile urine sample and surprise, surprise, surprise...UTI. Looking at another 3 weeks of antibiotics. Jeep oil change went well, need new tires (was hoping to get through the winter). Pie baking? Well, besides Courtney throwing pumpkin all over the kitchen and having to run out and find the can stuff, it went okay. She did notice my right eye looked pink, I wear contacts, that happens. Although, when I got home, it was tearing pretty bad all night.

Thursday - headed to MA for the weekend. Picked up brother at the airport in CT and he and I went to the cemetery for some time together to talk about Mom, Grandma and Grandpa. He pointed out another 24 in our family that relates to me. Mom and Dad's birthdays and anniversary are all on a 24th (Feb, Jun and Dec). Grandma was born in 1924. Auntie Steffi was born in 1948. And I was born in 1972. Never made that connection. We had Thanksgiving dinner at Mary's son's firehouse. The food was great. Enough said.

Friday - woke up with my right eye completely swollen and crusted shut. Spent a couple of hours looking for a walk-in clinic that was open and accepted my insurance. Found one at a small hospital in Stafford Springs, CT. Diagnosis? Pink Eye...great! After getting my prescription filled went back to Dad's house to wait for family coming over for lunch. Randi, Rich and the girls and Bruce, Carmela and Michael all came over...along with a friend of my Dad's. It was amazing having everyone together.

Saturday - got those new tires for the Jeep and had to drive Jay back to the airport. Was supposed to get together with a friend from town, but she has 2 small kids and I had pink eye. Was not feeling great and tired, so I crashed pretty early.

Sunday - was supposed to head home, but I needed to get the tires check and the place was closed on Sunday...so, plans changed to head home Monday morning. Spent the day/afternoon with Mary shopping at IKEA. Lots of fun! We were going to head to Sephora, but I think she was shopped out.

Monday - tires checked and headed home. Lupe was not happy...she likes being in MA because she gets to eat lots of stuff I don't feed her. Problem is, it causes severe indigestion for her...she was feeling it and I think the antibiotics aren't helping that. I did have lunch with a former co-worker/friend which was AWESOME!!!

So, its Thursday and I'm back to my normal routine for the most part. Left eye is still a mess, hoping it clears up in the next couple of days. Lupe not eating or pooping much...Cipro sucks! Supposed to have handed in my self evaluation at work on Tuesday...haven't even started and don't want to do it at all. My boss isn't pressuring me to get it to him yet, so I'm okay for now.

Blah, blah, blah, blah...boring post to write...probably even worse to read :)

Back from the brink...

Its been a crazy week and a half!!!

Last weekend (not this past one, the one before that) I took the 4+ hour drive from NY to NH to visit my darling cousin (but might as well be my sister) Randi and her family. Had an absolute blast! Not only was I able to spend time with Randi, Rich and the girls...we also went down to MA to visit my other cousin Brett and his family. It was a weekend full of happiness, warmth and reconnecting with some of the most important people in my life. The down side? Keep reading

I now am getting over an unconfirmed case of H1N1. Randi's clan had been sick and the youngest was really sick while I was there. So, I got back into town VERY early on Tuesday, went to work and was back home after lunch with a pounding headache, killer sore throat and a fever. I basically didn't move much until Monday morning when I had to get back to work. Of course I moved to take Lupe out and a quick run for soup and supplies, but that was it.

I feel much better, but still not 100%. The fever is long gone and so are the aches, but the cough, sore throat, headaches and lack of energy are not fully gone yet. It was quite the battle and Saturday night I didn't know if I was going to be able to stop coughing or to get the nose to stop bleeding. Obviously, I did and am taking it easy as I fully recover from this.

Looking forward to next week and seeing family for the holiday...organizing a small get together with family on the day after Thanksgiving and hope to see one of my friends from grade school, middle school and high school while we are both "home" for the weekend. Only sad part, miss seeing BF on her birthday...snarf!

Not the most meaninful post, but I'm back which is a good thing. :)

A truly wonderful woman

I found out last night that my mom's cousin's wife passed away yesterday morning from cancer. Sydna was a intelligent, kind and successful woman, a mother of two and stepmother of two. Her two children are young, I think her son, the younger of the two, is under 10.

She was 48 years old and had been fighting cancer for at least 3 years. I saw her 2 years ago at my cousin's bar mitzvah and she was not well then, but determined to fight as hard and as long as she could.

I remember my grandma telling me how wonderful and kind Sydna was. Howie, her husband, just absolutely adored her and you could tell by the way he looked at her. Sydna was an OBGYN and considered one of the best in the area. Ironically, if I recall correctly, she had ovarian cancer.

Her funeral is tomorrow and I'm not sure I can go as it is in MA. There are services Saturday through Wednesday night which I will try to go to on Monday as I head back from NH. Just a huge loss for her family and friends and a loss of a fantastic human being. Be well Sydna...

Boxed on a Boat

Okay, so there is this video contest for Black Box wines that my brother and his friends have entered. You've got to check out the video and vote for it as your favorite...

1) click on the following link: http://contest.blackboxwines.com/box/ and follow the instructions to register . IMPORTANT NOTE: don't forget to enter your birthdate when registering (so they know you're over 21). Otherwise, your vote won't be counted.
2) click on view and vote
3) find the film: "Boxed on a Boat", and cast your vote!!!

My brother is the boat owner in the smoking jacket and carrying the Sherlock Holmes pipe. If you need a chuckle, this is a good one...especially knowing Jay. :)

Couldn't resist

Just in case you are having a bad day...this may make you smile...gotta love a dog with a conehead and especially if that dog is Lupe :)

Sterile Sample...

So, I took Lupe to the vet yesterday afternoon for a follow up visit from her UTI. She has finished the 3 weeks of antibiotics (will help from Greenies Pill Pockets...these are wonderful if you ever have to give animals medication) and they wanted to check to see if the antibiotics worked. I was told they needed a sterile sample, so I figured that they were going to catch urine in a sterile cup. Makes sense...

They took Lupe towards the back, I thought that odd, since the last time I went with the tech to walk her while the tech used a ladle to catch the urine. Lupe and the tech came back about 5 or 10 minutes later and she told me that they were unable to collect the sample. They used an ultrasound but her bladder was too small and they want to have to stick her and not get anything out. They had me make another appointment for next week to try again.

Wait a second, STICK HER?! With what and where?! I did some looking online this morning and it appears the best way to get a sterile urine sample is to insert a syringe through the abdominal wall and into the bladder! Ah, NO! Lupe is 12 years old, I am NOT having her stuck so that they can get urine to confirm the antibiotics work. She is not symptomatic so this is just not necessary in my mind. I called the vet this morning, explained I was not comfortable with this and cancelled the appointment. I told them that if she became symptomatic, that I would bring her back and we could discuss this option.

Seriously, they were going to stick her like this? No one explained this to me...how would I know what this entailed as I am not a doctor, vet or vet tech...nor do I work in a doctor's or vet's office. Lupe's vets' office is wonderful! I have never had anything like this happen before there and I will from now on double and triple check what they are doing to her before they do it. And if I don't understand it, I will ask them to explain to me in detail what a procedure involves. I am SO glad she didn't have enough urine in her bladder for them to do this yesterday! I would have been in tears!!!

Happy Birthday

Today is my favorite college roommate's birthday...okay, so she was my only college roommate, but wouldn't that also make her my least favorite college roommate? LOL. Maybe I should say my favorite roommate because I did have housemates when I first moved to Albany. Well, then again, Lupe is techinically my favorite roommate...sorry, in a slightly surly mood. :)

So, here goes...

ISA ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISA!!!

If you have ever seen the Simpson episode where Homer ends up in a mental hospital with a roommate that thinks he is Michael Jackson, my Elisa birthday song is a variation of the "Lisa Birthday Song" that Bart and "Michael" sing for Lisa. Its a tradition for me to sing it to her and on her 21st birthday, I wrote it out 21 times and hid the notes in her room of our apartment. She was still finding them when we were packing up after graduation!

So, happy birthday Face! I hope it is a good one and know how much you mean to me. Scary to think that we have known each other for more than half our lives...we met over 19 years ago! Wow, I feel old!

ISA ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISA!!! ISA ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISA!!! ISA ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISA!!!

Sad Day

I just found out that a co-worker's son passed away last night. Ben was 9 years old and had been battling Osteocarcoma for over 2 years. The cancer went away, but kept coming back. My heart is seriously breaking for this family. It just truly enfuriates me that there is childhood cancer!

Do me a favor, keep Ben and his family in your thoughts and prayers and love your family members a little more today.

I found this on Ben's website and I thought it was really meaningful (it is a quote from a child battling cancer)

“People call me a brave soldier or fierce warrior in this war on cancer. I am not the soldier, the warrior, the doctors and nurses are. I am the battlefield.”

Happy Birthday & Happy Anniversary!!!

Happy 2nd birthday Dara! Yesterday was my cousin's little girl's 2nd birthday...which also would have been my grandfather's (her great-grandfather's) 100th birthday!

Happy 2nd anniversary Julie and Bob!

Its been quite the two years for these families but they are amazing people with strength and courage that never ends!

Hope you all have wonderful days!!!

Sinks

Last night I learned how to take a part the drain of a sink. Why you may ask? Well, yesterday morning I decided to wear a necklace and pendant I hadn't worn in a while. I couldn't see in the mirror on the dresser so I went into my bathroom to use that mirror. And wouldn't you know that the necklace slipped out of my fingers and the pendant went down the drain. Typical. Did I get upset and freak out? No...I honestly figured if it was gone, then oh well, it was gone and I was okay with that.

Well, I wanted to try to find it when I got home so I looked online to see how to remove the trap. Looked easy enough so I did it, except it wasn't in the trap. That mean it either was flushed through (although I didn't run the water after it dropped down the drain) or it was stuck up in the stopper. With my BF and her DH on the phone, I disconnected the stopper and in all the muck that builds up over a year was the pendant! Happy I found it...completely grossed out by the build up. Needless to say, I cleaned that sucker VERY well. Put the pipes back together, confirmed I didn't have a leak and I was good to go.

So, if you need to learn how to take about the pipes from you sink to either clean them or look for something you've lost down the drain, I'm your girl...and I won't charge you like a plumber would :)

Happy Friday all!!!

Its a boy!

I just found out my BF from high school gave birth to a baby boy on Tuesday the 29th! After only 2 hours of labor (start to finish), Ryan Jeffrey came into this world (9 lbs. 9 ozs). I've seen a couple of pictures and both Mom and Baby look wonderful...not too surprising, this is Vikki we are talking about. :)

Haven't seen Vikki in years, haven't met her husband or either of her children. We have kind of lost touch over the years which saddens me. Facebook does keep us up to date with each other's lives, but its not the same. I've known her since grade school and we have been through a lot together. Distance and years have definitely changed both of us and our relationship, but she will always been a very special friend and person to me.

Congratulations to her beautiful family!!!

Its October already?

Which means fall, baseball playoffs, candy corn, Halloween and Breast Cancer Awareness Month!

This is a disease that has rocked my life too many times...(chronological in order of diagnosis)

Auntie Steffi - fought and beat it twice, once when I was a teenager and the second time just a couple of years ago.

Mom - fought and beat it in 2005. Treatment took a lot out of her, but I know she was proud to consider herself a breast cancer survivor.

Naoko - fought and beat it in 2005/6 as well. She is an amazing woman who kept her battle very private, but it worked!

Randi - okay, what do you do when one of the people you consider your sister tells you she has breast cancer at 32 and is 5 1/2 months pregnant? Happened in 2007 and after treatment and many surgeries later (and some still to come), she is even more beautiful and stronger than ever before. And did I mention that beautiful daughter of hers?

Julie - in the fight of her life and doing wonderfully! Julie just finished her first round of chemo and is gearing up for her second when she returns to CA next week. I had the pleasure of seeing her and her 15 month old adorable little boy, Cooper, last Friday. It was amazing day and she truly inspires me.

So, make sure you check yourself this month and stop and remember those who are fighting and fought...those who have won and those who have lost. Let's hope there is a cure for this soon!

Love to all!!!

A couple of shout outs!

To my comadre and her husband for celebrating their anniversary yesterday! Love you guys! You are truly the best and I would be a blubbering fool without you!

To my friend Ashley on her 26th birthday today! A girly girl through and through with a huge heart and member of my "drag queen" duo.

To my friend Ryann on her 27th birthday tomorrow! A kindred spirit and a wise soul and member of my "drag queen" duo.

To my friend Mary Beth and her beautiful little girl Sarah for apple and raspberry picking fun on Saturday! Mary Beth is a joy to work with, someone I look up to and her and her husband helped me out when things were not good.

To my friend Maria for chilling together at a baseball game yesterday! She is my girly, my concert buddy and my connection to anything vampire related...most importantly, she is my girly, nuf' said.

To my friend Julie who I will be seeing later this week when she and her son fly in from CA! One of my oldest friend (duration, not age) who inspires me daily with her strength and resolve...not just in her battle with cancer, but since I've known her.

Reminds me that I surround myself with wonderful people who are honest, true, and loyal (some of the most important things to me).

4 day weeks

So I heard on the radio that schools are starting to go to 4 day weeks, deciding to remain closed on Mondays. The normal school day will be extended by 1 hour for the days that school is in session. They hope that this will save on transportation, heating/cooling and other operational costs. My question is can't businesses do this? How much would it help employee morale for long weekends? I took Friday off and had Monday off for Labor Day and the extra time was really needed and refreshing. As Americans we work so hard and don't have long vacations or shorter work days, that I think its time companies seriously start considering this...



The long weekend was great! I got to meet Sugar, my Dad and Mary's new puppy. She's nuts and ALL puppy! Cute and fun, but a little much too handle, especially for Lupe. Speaking of Lupe, I realized that yesterday was the 12 year anniversary of her coming into my life. We have had quite the 12 years together and I truly cherish every day that I have with her.

Hope you all had a relaxing weekend and are settling back into the grind...

Its just one of those days...

I wish I could just not deal with things right now. Work is super busy and I feel like I am spinning my wheels with things. I tell someone something and they tell someone else wrong information and bog down people with email.

Lupe had to go to the vet today, again. Appears that when she got hurt in May, she strained a tendon in her foot that is now inflammed. She is on anti-inflamatory meds as needed. Otherwise, the vet is amazed at how well her joints look for her age.

I just feel wicked unorganized and pulled in too many directions...maybe its vacation time...no $$$ for that right now though. Thank goodness for long weekends then!

When your CEO offers...

2 tickets for a Blink-182 concert that night for free...YOU TAKE THEM!!! Seriously, my CEO just came to my office and asked me if I wanted two tickets to tonight's show. I said I would check to see if Maria was around and he said if I couldn't use them to find them a good home, not just anybody, but someone deserving them...he said start with myself. HUGE compliment for him to say that.

Called Maria, she was planning on going to Dan's baseball game, but now were are leaving work early and going to SPAC. Not a huge Blink-182 fan, but Weezer is playing and Maria is psyched for Taking Back Sunday. Plus, they are 4th row seats and I have never had seats at SPAC.

Lots to get through today but this is going to be fun!!! :)

The End of August?

Can it really be the end of August already?! Where did the summer go? Summer, what summer? That's probably more accurate. :) Weekend of memories for me...Grandma's yahrzeit was yesterday, today would have been Chelsea's 15th birthday and I have lived in my place for a year. Its amazing how time flies sometimes...

Spent Saturday with Densie which was fantstic! Shopping, laughing, good food and just catching up with an awesome friend. Lupe did double time wiggles when Densie came in...I love that.

Speaking of Lupe, her hearing seems okay. She can hear somethings...I wonder if she still has her selective hearing. However, I noticed she has a slight limp sometimes, favoring her front right paw. Took a look at it last night and realized its the nail that she hurt back in May. Looks like the nail is growning out and is a little tender. Of course I will keep my eye on it and not tell Ryann...she doesn't need the reminder of that.

Can't believe next Monday is Labor Day...so not ready for summer to be over!!!

A follow up to previous post

Yesterday was the reunion/pool party with the Big Moose group. I was wicked nervous leaving and driving over...but I had an amazing time! I hadn't seen everyone in over a year and it was almost like that year never happened. Good food, good friends and good times...what more can you ask for? Still smiling as I think about everyone today. I learned that I do have some awesome friends eventhough I met them through others...the bonds that we formed are real and lasting and that's just amazing.

Short post, sorry, lots of stories, but they can be shared in person. Happy Monday all!!!

How to have a great day...

#1 wake up to an adorable dog wanting belly scratches
#2 no traffic on the way to work
#3 getting good music in your head on the way to work
#4 Friday, payday, 'nuf said
#5 cookout for lunch
#6 work your lunch off at spin class
#7 girls' night with good friends
#8 get an email from 2 wonderful girls telling you how much they love and miss you!

Okay, I think 1-7 are pretty self explanatory, so I'll explain 8 a little. Was invited to a pool party next weekend at friends' house. Its a "reunion" of the people I used to spend July 4th with...haven't seen them in over a year. Well, two of the girls (they are both around 9 years old) sent me an email telling me how happy they are that I am coming, will have a surprise for me and that they have missed me so much. They also attached a couple of pictures of them. It COMPLETLEY made my day!

Have a great weekend all. As for me, headed to Saratoga on Sunday with JLSS, we have a special lunch planned, weather is going to be fantastic...can't wait!!!

Haircuts Rule

So, I finally did it...cut my hair pretty darn short and I LOVE it! I have been thinking about doing this for the past couple of years, but didn't feel like dealing with potentially growing it out and wasn't sure I was ready for the change. But last night, I finally did it! I will have to take pictures and post them soon. Its fun, flirty and wicked cute. :)

1 down, 45 to go...

Saturday I finally hiked a high peak in the Adirondacks! It has taken me 15 years of living in the area to finally do it, but glad I waited! Dan, Maria, Jim and I tackled Giant Mountain which is in Keene, NY (about 30 minutes outside of Lake Placid). FYI, Giant Mountain’s elevation is over 46oo feet!!! It was a beautiful sunny day and there weren't many people at the top when we got there. G oing down, we passed almost 100 heading up. We could see to Whiteface, Mt. Marcy and Lake Champlain. I made tentative plans to hike a high peak 3 years ago, but never went through with them. Instead, my first high peak was with great friends on a fantastic day...think the hiking bug may have officially bitten me, although my quads are too happy with that thought... :)

Here's a quick summary of the day...

4:30 am - alarm goes off
4:55 am - walk Lupe
5:05 am - leave apartment
5:25 am - arrive at Dan & Maria's (5 minutes late)
5:35 am - Dan, Maria, Jim and I are on the road
7:25 am - arrive at trailhead in Keene, NY
7:30 am - hit the trail
10:45 am - arrive at summit (what an AWESOME view)
11:20 am - after lunch, head back down the trail
2:25 pm - reach trailhead again

Here are pictures as proof that I actually did this.

Maria and I signing at the trailhead

The gang (Dan, Jim, Me and Maria)

Maria, Jim and I considering the rockslide we need to climb

Me at the summit...awesome view of some of the other highpeaks

Maria and I at the top (the mountain all the way to the right is Whiteface in Lake Placid)

A dog, a memory and a birthday

So I found out on Tuesday that Lupe's hearing loss is permanent and most likely a result of her age and not the recent ear infection...which has cleared up. It was really hard to get the confirmation. I remember when I found out about her eyes completely losing it and the vets telling me not to be too concerned because dogs use their hearing more than their sight. Okay, so now what? Its going to be a period of adjusting to using hand signals and trying to remember I can't call her name anymore to get her attention. There will probably be no more head cocks like she used to do when she would hear her name or a funny noise. But she is still my Lupe and I love her to pieces.

Yesterday was the 16th anniversary of my Nana's passing. Its a little bittersweet this year now that we have just lost Poppi. I can only hope that they are together again and catching up on the years that they have been apart. I think of how much has changed in 16 years and I'm saddened by all that she has missed...weddings, grandkids, great grandkids, graduations, World Series victories by the Red Sox. Nana was a HUGE Sox fan!

Today is my cousin Michael's 15th birthday...I can't believe that little newborn I held in my arms 15 years ago is now a wonderful, caring and sweet teenager. He's such a great person. I remember my uncle telling me that I was going to be his godmother and being so shocked and touched that they would want me. Just 1 more year until he can drive...yikes!!!

She looks beautiful...

Just checked my friend Jules' blog and the hair shaving party seems to have gone well. http://julieolsensjourney.blogspot.com/2009/07/tata-to-tresses.html

I really wish she lived closer so I could have been there for support and the festivities. Jules, your outlook is amazing, your strength is never ending and your beauty shines through with or without the hair. Miss you girl!!!

Theme Song

So, I have a new theme song...I've decided to make it official. Its Invincible by Pat Benatar. Always loved this song and you've got to love an 80's female rocker like Pat Benatar. More of a random song by her, unless you've seen "The Legend of Billie Jean" which was a favorite of mine for many years. It must have been the young Christian Slater. :) Okay, here are the words...

This bloody road remains a mystery
This sudden darkness fills the air
What are we waiting for?
Wont anybody help us?
What are we waiting for?

We cant afford to be innocent
Stand up and face the enemy
Its a do or die situation
We will be invincible

This shattered dream you cannot justify
Were gonna scream until were satisified
What are we running for?
Weve got the right to be angry
What are we running for?
When there's no where we can run to anymore

We cant afford to be innocent
Stand up and face the enemy
Its a do or die situation
We will be invincible
And with the power of conviction
There is no sacrifice
Its a do or die situation
We will be invincible

Wont anybody help us?
What are we running for?
When theres no where, no where we can run to anymore

We cant afford to be innocent
Stand up and face the enemy
Its a do or die situation
We will be invincible
And with the power of conviction
There is no sacrifice
Its a do or die situation
We will be invincible

Of course my other theme songs will still stand depending on the situation. I just felt after all I have gone through in the last year I needed a kick a$$ type of song, and this is it. FYI, it has been just that, a year...packed my suitcase and left my old life a year ago today. How am I feeling? Fantastic!!! I haven't felt this good about myself and where I am going in a very long time. Things do happen for a reaon, we may not know why at the time, but it eventually becomes clear to us.

Stand up and be invincible!!!

He would have been 90...

Today would have been my Poppi's 90th birthday. I had planned on going down this weekend to see him but he passed away Tuesday the 14th. I flew down on Wednesday and his funeral was on Thursday. Its sad to know that he is gone, but he did live a wonderful and full life. I can only hope that he is with Nana again and they are living it up together in heaven.

Happy 90th Poppi and rest well!

Happy Birthday

Just a quick Happy Birthday to D!!! Hope you have a great day...you SO deserve it!

Here's to a great friend who has really been through a lot lately. Dinner is on me on Thursday!!!

In loving memory...

I just came back from being with my comadre Courtney as she put her cat Christy down. Christy was left out in a blizzard on Christmas morning almost 14 years ago and was rescued by Courtney. She was given a second chance at life. Christy and Courtney were definitely kindred souls. They went through a lot together over the years...and even when times were tough, they had each other.

My relationship with Christy was shaky at best. If I tried to go near her I would get growled or hissed at. It became a game to see if I could actually pet her without her freaking out. Sometimes I won, but mostly she did.

Its so hard to see an animal fade and hard to make the decision that it is time to help them by ending their suffering. My heart aches for Courtney.

Rest well Christy...may you find all the catnip and sunny spots up in the kitty playground in the sky.

Goopy-dog

So I think I should call Lupe, Goopy...she has an infection in both eyes and both ears! The poor thing has been scratching at her ears and shaking her head constantly. On top of that, the goop coming out of her eyes is gross. Took her to the vet on Tuesday so she's now officially on medication...3 weeks of ear drops and a week of eye ointment. Let me tell you, she does not like either of them. Her eyes are looking better, less goop coming out, but the ointment makes the hair around her eyes slimy.

My poor little girl...

Mixed Emotions

Big holiday weekend coming up which is great because I really need a break. This is a transitional year for me in that I don't have any concrete plans and am not doing the same thing I had done in previous years. I'm excited to create new traditions and memories but will miss the people I created my old memories with. It is nice not to have to shop, pack and travel this weekend. Its great not to have to board Lupe and worry if she is okay.

So what are my plans? Take it easy, read, organize, ride, take Lupe (who is officially a Chicken Dog today) for walks, sit by the pool (if the rain ever stops), go to a cookout and just be me. What else could a girl want to do? :)

Have a happy and safe July 4th weekend!!! Make some lasting memories, spend time with those who mean a lot to you and celebrate that fact that we live in the U.S.A.

Happy Birthday!!!

Okay, so I am a day late on this post, but...

Happy 12th Birthday Lupe!!! Can't believe that little puppy is now 12 years old!!! Ryann and I took her for "Frosty Paws" ice cream which she loved. She got a new toy from Courtney and Co. and two bags of special yummies from me. She is such a sweet girl so here's to 12 years and hopefully many more!!!

Happy birthday Poo-bear!!!

Minor Meltdown

Okay, I know this is silly and strange to post, but I had a minor meltdown this morning. Since finding out about Julie's breast cancer, I've been trying to get the nerve to perform self exams. So, today was the day I stopped procrasinating and decided to do it. I couldn't!!! I freaked out and cried instead.

I know they say ignorance is bliss, but this isn't something to be ignorant about. I remember being so upset at my Mom when she told me that she knew about her lump for over 6 months but was too scared to do anything about it. I also know that early detection saves lives, cases in point, Julie and Randi. So why can't I suck it up and do it? Am I afraid of what I may find? Well, yeah, who wouldn't be?! Or is it just being scared of what Julie is facing? Or maybe both?!

So I'm thinking that I will set the 24th of each month as my day to check. 24 is a significant number in my life (parents' birthdays and anniversary) and its a date I won't forget. Now, to just get the nerve to do it... *sigh*

Say hello to Sugar

So, my phone rings at midnight, of course I'm sleeping, its my Dad so I answer it. He starts babbling about me having to check my computer (email) because he sent me something but won't tell me what it is. I should have told him to call me in the morning but I didn't. I turn on my modem and computer (I don't leave them on) and wait for it to boot up. I finally ask him what type of dog he got and he seems surprised that I know what he is calling about. Meet Sugar, a 12-week old Maltese puppy that my Dad and Mary bought yesterday. She should be ready to come home on Friday after she receives her last shots.

Yeah, she's cute and she will probably make them both very happy, but I'm just concerned because they really don't understand the whole training thing and that a puppy needs boundries and consistency. I'm hoping for the best with this one...welcome to the family Sugar.

Thoughts, prayers and hugs

Well, today is the day that my friend Julie's battle over cancer takes the first major step forward. She is currently at UCLA waiting for surgery for a double masectomy. She has decided not to mess around and is "shutting down the cancer playground," her words not mine. I don't blame her and would do the same thing.

Julie's attitutude and drive over the many years I have known her is something that I have always admired. She is strong, vocal and doesn't take crap from anyone...including breast cancer. Its going to be a long road for her, but her strength and the love of those who care about her will get her through this.

So, my thoughts, prayers and hugs are with Julie and her family today, tomorrow and for as long as they need them. Julie, you say others have inspired you to fight as hard as you are, but you are an inspiration now. Love you girl!!!

In loving memory...

Friday, I was with a dear friend as she went through the horrible decision of putting her dog to sleep. Nigel was a sweet boy who unfortunately wasn't well and a prisoner in his own mind. He was Lupe's first friend after we moved and they hit it off so quickly. Nigel was calm and happy when Lupe was around. We took them for walks together and made up stories about what they did when we were not around.

Today I found out that another dear friend and co-worker lost one of her dogs last night. Riley was a doll and just a happy guy. Riley helped me through a really horrible point in my life by reminding me that there is a thing called unconditional love. When I couldn't have Lupe with me, Riley was there. He was always happy to see me when I got "home" from work and even after I hadn't seen him a while, he remembered who I was.

My thoughts and prayers are with them and their families. I will truly miss them both and hope that they are in that forever dog park in the sky.

The Ride of My Life

Yesterday was the American Diabetes Association Tour de Cure. New route this year, new location and new outlook. I had a slight mishap at the starting line, got nudged by a volunteer with one of my feet locked in and feel over. Couple of cuts and bruises but I cleaned up the blood and rode on.

It was an AMAZING ride. Weather was perfect, beautiful rolling hills in spots, awesome downhills, killer uphills, fantastic shade, nice breeze, you get the point. At the end, a 1 mile sprint to the finish line on the verge of tears of pride and joy (I know she was riding with me all along and I really felt her presence at the end). A couple of friends came up to watch me finish and Dad and Mary drove up for the afternoon. It was just fantastic!

Mind you, I'm completely exhausted, but not sore. The 6 months of spinning definitely helped. The support I have received for this over the years means the world to me. I had rider number 46 which means out of all of the riders last year, I was the 46th highest fundraiser. Woo hoo! Go me!!! If you haven't donated for this year's ride and want to, please let me know because fundraising doesn't end until the end of the month. The money isn't important, its all of the support and caring that people have showed me that means the most. Although the money does go to a good cause and hopefully will help cure this horrible disease.

Looking back at 36

So, tomorrow I turn 37, although I've thought of myself as 37 for a couple of months already. 36 was a tough year but I think I came out on the other end just fine. I've learned a lot about myself and others. I've learned that I can stand on my own two feet, that I am respected at work, that my family adores me, that I have some amazing friends who would do anything for me and that no matter what, you have to have faith in yourself and your decisions. I consider myself truly blessed and happy, don't know when the last time I really could say that and mean it.

So long 36, thanks for a year of struggling, surviving and living...here's to 37!!!

Prayers and Hugs Being Sent

I just found out that an old and dear friend has breast cancer. Well, she's not old in the sense of age, but in the fact that we have known each other since we were 11. I am truly saddened by this and have been crying since I found out a couple of hours ago. Looks like they may have caught it early which is very positive. I'm scared for her and what she may have to go through. Thankfully my wonderful cousin who has been through this is in touch with her to give her advice and support. My heart is breaking right now.

Please know that my thoughts, prayers and hugs are with you now and always!!! Distance doesn't matter, I'm here for you no matter what! I love you tons girl!!!

Happy Birthday!!!

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday dear Jay,
Happy birthday to you!

Happy 40th birthday to my big brother!!! I can't believe he is 40 today! Yesterday I went to MA and we went out to lunch at the Fort to celebrate. It was a great lunch and I got to meet Suzanna who is really sweet. Although she reminded me of how horrible my Spanish is now.

I wish I could have spent more time with him or thrown him the big 40th bash I wanted to. I'll find a way to do something special for him. Mom is looking down upon him today and singing to him on the top of her lungs. Our birthdays were always so special to her...

Happy Birthday Jay!!!

Happy Mother's Day

Just wanted to wish everyone a very Happy Mother's Day!!! Take a moment to get in touch with your mom and let her know how much she means to you today and every day. Mom's are the most important people in our lives. They shape who we are from the very beginning and they never stop doing so...even after they are gone.

Happy Mother's Day Mom! I love and miss you more than words can say.

Dog Fight!!!

Lupe got into a doggie fight on Friday with her BFF Nigel. They are okay and talking to each other again, but there was some blood drawn...and it was Lupe's.

She's okay, but has an infected paw at the nail. It looks like Nigel got possessive of his food (which was removed, but he didn't know that) and went after Lupe. Lupe must have tried to push him away and got her nail stuck on Nigel's id tag. Some bleeding but she seemed okay.

Saturday, a little tender, but still seemed okay. Sunday VERY tender and a little pus around the nail. So yesterday, I took her to the vet. She has a slight infection and will be on antibiotics (oral and topical) for the next 10 days. Poor little dog. But she got yogurt, doggie crack and a new goose squeaky toy from Nigel and Ryann. :)

Nigel is a sweet boy and Lupe and I love him so its not a huge deal. Fights happen between dogs and this was obviously an accident.

I had to take yesterday off as I really wasn't feeling good all weekend. A beautiful sunny day and both Lupe and I were too weak to move. Its just a house of infection between me and Lupe right now. LOL! I

In Training

Its official, I'm in training for this year's Tour de Cure. I'm really excited about the ride this year because its a new location (Saratoga Springs vs. Stillwater) and I'm trying to join a team at my gym.

For those who don't know about the ride, its sponsored by the American Diabetes Association and is a ride, not a race. Its an awesome atmosphere and I have enjoyed riding and raising money since 2006.

So why do we ride? To raise money to hopefully find a cure for this horrible disease and to support those whose lives have been changed by diabetes.

So why do I ride? To honor my mom. Need I say more?

I would love it if you would consider sponsoring me. No pressure and no minimum amount. Its truly the thought that you would support me and my mom that matters to me. Check out my website... http://main.diabetes.org/site/TR/TourdeCure/TDC051598030?px=2836172&pg=personal&fr_id=5570

I hope that link works. If not, let me know and I'll post directions on how to sponsor me. Thanks!!!

Mental Health Day

Did you ever just wake up and just want to take the day off? To stay inside, relax on the couch, catch up on TV, read, knit, maybe do a few things around the house, but just to take a day where you can just be a sloth?

Well, today was that day for me. And did I do it? Nope. Why do I have to be so darn responsible? Well, maybe if it was 65 or 70 degrees out, I would have but its supposed to be in the 50's and rainy this afternoon. Which I guess is more of the type of day to stay inside, relax on the couch, catch up on TV...

I must be nuts...

...or losing my mind...

So, I went to go to they gym after work yesterday and realized in the locker room, I forgot my towel and my spin shorts. GRRRR! So I left all in a huff because I REALLY wanted and needed to work out. There was no way I was going to be able to get home, get my stuff and get back to the gym in under 5 minutes. So what did I do?

I signed up for a 6 am spin class this morning. And yes, I did make it. I got up, walked Lupe, got ready and was at the gym waiting for class to start at 5:50 am. Class was with a different instructor and he was great! Got home by 7, showered, got ready for work and was at my desk by 8:15. Not too bad. I'm planning on doing it again on Thursday...

I truly must be losing it!!!

A day late...

Happy 39th Birthday Jill! I can't believe I talked about the weekend getaway in celebration of Jill's birthday but forgot to actually write happy birthday to her on her actual birthday.

True sign that I need more vacation!!! Lol...

The 3 R's

Relaxing, reminiscing and reconnecting...That was the theme of the weekend (good job on that one Rand!)

What an amazing time. Got to spend time with Randi, Rich, and the girls before the three of us headed to Maine. Bri-bri and Da-da are just absolutely beautiful! We had lobster dinner and played Guitar Hero.

Friday was shopping up in Kittery. We checked into our room (which was fantastic) and went to dinner. Randi & I even had the berry infused drinks that we did the last time we were there. After we got back we went and boiled in the whirlpool and later in our room...lol...

Saturday was our workout day, more good food and massages. We went to one of Randi's favorite places for dinner. Fantstic scallops. More boiling in the whirlpool that night as well.

I learned a lot about them and a lot about myself. I may not have a sister, but those two are the closest thing ever!!! Really want to make this a tradition...

Girls' Weekend

Tomorrow I leave for a long weekend in New Hampshire and Maine with 2 of my cousins. I haven't seen Jill since December (Florida trip) and I haven't seen Randi since September (Dara's christening). I can't wait to see them both!

Thursday we are getting a "Lobstah Dinnah" prepared by Randi's husband, Rich...although I was told I get to drop them in the pot. Friday we are heading up to Ogunquit where we will spend time shopping, eating, getting a massage, relaxing and probably giggling like we did when I used to stay at their house.

Lupe, aka Chicken Dog, is staying with my Dad and Mary. So she is getting a mini-vacation as well. This is going to be amazing!!!

Some hard times...

I have been avoiding my blog lately...yes it is true. Friday was a very hard day for me and I just haven't had it in me to put it down in words. Loved ones were lost (both canine) by my cousin's family and a co-workers family. A fear I have in the back of my mind that one day it will be my turn to lose mine. A job/career was lost and a life turned upside down because of it. I know its not my problem but he meant so much to me for so long and I don't like to see others in pain (no matter what the circumstances are).

It does show me how fragile we all are...how one day things seem okay and the next, they are not. You cannot be afraid to live and we should live life to the fullest but we should also be prepared if something does not go the way we had hoped or planned. Trust me, I have learned that lesson very well.

So, do me a favor, take a look around and be thankful for all that you have. Take an extra moment to hug someone you care about. Give a loved pet an extra treat or scratch. Then look at yourself and realized how blessed we are to have people who care about us because when things go wrong we need their support...

Helmets are Good

So the death of Natasha Richardson has me a little freaked out and upset. I understand that accidents do happen, but if you can do anything to protect yourself in one you should.

I've been to Tremblant and probably was on the slope she fell on. Its not very steep but it goes to show you that speed and steepness of a slope aren't the only causes of skiing (or boarding) accidents.

Why not wear a helmet? Are you worried about looks? Does it mess up your hair? Honestly, who cares?! The majority of the people on slopes wear helmets. If you would put one on your child, why wouldn't you put one on yourself? Same can be said for bikes.

Sorry to be preachy, but I've fallen while boarding and slammed my head pretty hard and I was VERY happy I was wearing a helmet. I just wonder if this could have been prevented. That said, my sympathies to her family.

FINALLY!!!

So I just found out that my promotion and title change are official! I had my review on February 24th (Mom's birthday) and it went fantastic. I was told at that time I would be promoted to Contracts Manager. I honestly have been waiting for this for a number of years. I watch as people who remained in my old department that I trained get promoted and year after year I was told I had a great year but wouldn't be promoted and maybe next year.

Well, last year during my review I asked my boss what I needed to do to get a promotion. I was told that he would be pushing for my promotion in the coming year. When our Legal Assistant left last summer and the new one is hired, I brought it up with my boss again. He had the new Legal Assistant report to me which was the first step in getting the promotion. He began to hint that I would have a title change and promotion with this year's review. Well, he came through. Not only did I get the change in title but I also got an 8% raise.

Was the wait worth it? I think so. If I had gotten a promtion sooner I would have either been promoted to a "Senior Contracts Associate" or an "Assistant Contracts Manager" or "Associate Contracts Manager." This way, I got the full jump from the Associate (now Administrator) level to the Manager level.

Having the review on Mom's birthday and getting the promotion really shows me that someone is definetely watching over me. :)

Happy 4th Birthdays!!!

Happy 4th Birthday Brianna and Alex!!! I'm a day late on posting this, but I wanted to make sure it got up on my blog! Its so strange that my BF and cousin had their son and daughter on the exact same day!!! I was able to go to Alex's birthday party on Saturday which was fantastic!!! Good friends, low key and a very happy birthday boy! I hope to get up to NH to see Brianna (and the rest of the clan of course) sometime REAL soon!

Hope you guys had a very happy day!!!

Sweet Sixteen

Today is my Little Sister's 16th birthday. I can't believe she is 16 already! I decided to become a Big Sister after my Grandma died in 2001. I wanted to do something positive with my time and I figured it was a great organization.

After months of filling out applications, background checks, training and waiting, Amie and I were finally matched in March of 2002. She had just turned 9 and had been waiting for a Big Sister since her previous Big got married and ended the match. Our visit thing we did together? Rollerskating! It was a BLAST!!!

Over the years, I have watched how Amie has grown and matured. The 9-year old that was shorter than me, now towers over me. The poor student is now an honor student. The shy and sometimes hard little girl has turned into a warm, open and polite teenager. The girl who needed my mentoring, friendship and caring has given the same back to me so many times.

Tonight she has a basketball game and I'm going to watch showing up with her birthday card and a dozen pink roses. I'm so proud of who she is and who she has the potential to be.

Happy Birthday Amie!

Will you still need me, will you still feed me?

Today is my Mom's birthday, she would have been 64 (hence the Beatles reference). I sang happy birthday to her with Lupe this morning. And even added her famous line "You're 64" to the end. :)

Its a big day for my brother and me. My brother's interview for the position in Geneva is today at 10 am. He and I talked about it in length over the weekend. If he gets it, he has a lot of decisions to make and wants me to help make them, act kind of like a sounding board I guess.

My evaluation is at 9 am. My boss has told me that I'm going to be happy, but honestly, I've heard that in the past and nothing really happens. I'm ready to move forward and would like to do it hear, but if they don't give me the chance, I'll have to consider my options.

But its a happy day because its a day to celebrate my Mom and the impact she had on the world, especially on her 2 children.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!! Love and miss you more than words can express!!!

Closing doors...

Don't they say that when a door shuts for you, another opens somewhere else? My question is, how do you find the door that has opened and how to secure the closed one to stay shut?

I realized today that sometime we think we make an impact on people's lives and we really don't. Its a painful thing to come to grips with and its bothering me today.

On a brighter note, today is my oldest friend's birthday. I met Jill when I was going into kindergarten and she was entering first grade. Her family moved to my street and my mom sent my brother and I over with brownies (or were they cookies?). Jay and I were too scared and shy to go over, so my mom had to walk us over. Over the years we had our spats and we grew apart, but Jill was my best friend growing up and she means a lot to me.

Tomorrow is my review and Jay's interview. We are both anxious about things, but its February 24th. We both believe that things happen for a reason. Why would both of these things be scheduled tomorrow if she wasn't looking down at us and didn't have good news coming our way?

Keeping my fingers crossed for both of us. We both could use some good news!!!

Back from Cali

*sigh* what a wonderful weekend! Did I really have to come back? I'm going to be lazy and steal Julie's post of the weekend...you can find it here...

http://www.babyolsenchronicles.blogspot.com/

Back to reality for me. But with a clear head and extremely relaxed. I could never thank Julie, Bob, Cooper, Hunter and Winnie enough! THANK YOU GUYS!!! YOU SO ROCK!!!

7:32 pm

Its one of those things that you just don't forget. 7:32 pm, Friday, February 3, 2006 is the moment my life changed in a way I never expected. It was when, surrounded by her husband, 2 children and sister, that she let go and moved on. I truly believe she waited to be in her home, surrounded by those who loved her most and then moved on to a place where there was no more pain, sickness and suffering.

7:32 pm. I stopped my watch at that very moment and have never warn it again. I remember the events of the day like it was yesterday. I could probably retell every moment. People have told me that it gets easier and the memories will fade. In some respects, maybe I believe them and in others I do not. I don't want it to be "easier" because living on without the single most influential person in your life isn't easy and that's okay. I don't want the memories to fade because I'm glad I can remember so much.

I don't dwell and I'm not stuck in a time 3 years ago. I'm a very different person than I was back then. In some respects I know she would be proud of me and in others she would be screaming at me for being so naive. But either way, she would still love me.

I love and miss you so much Mom!!!

Preparation for a solemn day

Tomorrow is my Mom's yahrzeit. For those who don't know what that is, it is the anniversary of someone's death. Jewish tradition follows the Hebrew calendar dates, so although she died on Februrary 3rd this year that corresponding Hebrew date is January 31st. (Every wonder why Jewish holidays fall on different dates each year? This is why...) Of course the significance of February 3rd is much stronger for me and my family, but so is the actual yahrzeit date.

Although tomorrow is the date of the yahrzeit, you begin observing at sundown the night before the actual day (another one of our little quirks I guess).

To mark it this year, I am leaving work early to go home and light a candle for her. Well, plug in the little yarzheit light I have...burning a candle for 24 hours isn't the safest thing to do. I'll read a couple of psalms in honor of her as well. Tonight I will go to temple and recite the Mourners' Kaddish. I called my Dad to remind him that he should go to temple, especially since they will read her name outloud to the congregation there. My brother is in Ethiopia right now but I'll send him an email to remind him as well.

Tomorrow will be a quiet day and I will surround myself with caring friends and my wonderful little Lupe. I really want Lupe around as she brings me so much happiness and my Mom absolutely adored her. I've noticed that I've started to call her by the nicknames my Mom did. Its a silly connection, but still a meaningful one.

Happy Friday all and enjoy your weekend!!!

2 years ago...

...I lost an important person in my life, Steve's Dad, Forrest. Forrest was 63 years old and died from terminal lung cancer. He had smoked since he was a teenager to help him overcome a stutter. He fought hard to keep going and Steve fought hard to keep him living in his small home. I miss Forrest a lot, he may not have been perfect as a father or perfect as a husband, but he loved his family and wanted nothing more than his boys to be happy and to learn from his mistakes.

Forrest taught me about their family and their traditions. I will never forget the fantastic Christmas Eve dinners and how I was able to help him see a last one with his entire family (brother, sister, sons, daughter-in-law, 3 beautiful grandchildren and his best friend). I was blessed to be able to have helped the family say good-bye and support them through their grief.

I wouldn't have changed a thing. Well, maybe, one thing...having him still around.

Ms. Lupe

My wonderful Ms. Lupe has a REALLY bad UTI. Now for you and I we can tell that something is wrong and do something about it. Unfortunately for Ms. L, she has to wait until her mommy figures out that the 13 attempts at peeing while out for a walk is not a good thing. Nor are the drops of blood in her pee. This was Saturday.

So I called the vet and brought her in yesterday. $101 later, they informed me that she has blood, protein, crystals and bacteria in the urine sample I had to bring in. Ever try to get a urine sample from a dog? Quite interesting.

She is on antibiotics for 3 weeks. The vet told me to feed her yogurt so that the antibiotics don't kill her stomach. Luckily, she likes plain yogurt. Actually, she LOVES plain yogurt. Hopefully the antibiotics work, the infection clears up and we move on from this one. She does have the beginnings of a cataract in her right (good eye). The vet said not to worry about it yet because its just like having a spot on your glasses, you can see around it but its kind of annoying. He attributed this one to age and not genetics (like the one in her left eye).

I have a very lethargic, sore and pouty cockapoo on my hands. But she is very cuddly right now and that's wonderful when its cold outside. :)

Perspective...

Today I got an email from our VP of HR that one of the members of our Business Development department passed away last night. He had been sick for under a month with what was originally thought to be an ear infection. From what I have heard there was a pooling of blood or fluid at the base of his brain that was inoperable and if they did try to fix it he would have most likely ended up a quadriplegic, deaf and blind. He was admitted to hospice last week and has succumbed to his condition.

He had only been with our company for a couple of months and I didn't work with him very closely, but he was very friendly. He and I spoke about corporate softball teams, he used to run a league in his old position, and I even mentioned to him that he should contact Steve to see if he needed a pitcher for next season.

I'm truly saddened by his passing. It makes everything I've been going through seem trivial. But at the same time, it shows me life is short and you should treasure what you have had and enjoy what you got and be hopeful of what your future may bring.

Today, take a moment and look at where you've been, where you are and where you want to be. Be thankful for it all and do what you can to keep you focused on the good in life and people. We never know when it may all be taken away from us for one reason or another.

Resolutions

Thought I would officially write down my resolutions for 2009. I want to be able to look back at 2009 and be proud of what I have accomplished in the year...

1. Take better care of myself (physically and emotionally).
2. Be a better daughter, sister, cousin, friend and "mom" to those I care about the most.
3. Pay off more debt.
4. Be more patient and less jumpy towards people.
5. Achieve professional success and goals.
6. Do more things I like.

Yeah, I know, these are pretty big things but they are things that will help me grow more. I have already started some of them...I know, the year is only 6 days old. This past weekend my brother came in and we worked on #3. I have a six month plan on how to get things under control. We also worked on #1 and I joined a gym last night. Even did a pilates class.

So, there they are...in 12 months I guess I'll see how well I did. Wish me luck!!!